Chasing Wholeness with a Knife

her nightmares

seek asylum
in uncanny ink,

bled by a tongue
bitten hard
by her own teeth

– – –

a broken woman

forever chasing
wholeness with a knife,

cutting through all
she wants
but fails to understand

– – –

all pitied her,

before
she maimed the village.

“I just wanted
to fix you,” she said again,
believing the lie

 

part of the inspiration behind this cherita trio,
the rest is in the wee notes

the wee notes…
– after two people got into a fistfight, over James Comey and 45 (one called 45 a liar and Comey a patriot, the other called Comey a traitor and 45 a necessity), an old-timer said to me, “And that’s the bad of it. That man’s lies cut people.” I have no idea if he was talking about Comey or about the Orange Infection. But the words stayed with me, the image of lies cutting through people like a knife.
– linked to the Imaginary Garden with Real Toads.

 

Eyes Open and Wants Exposed

We started in the mud,
after rekindling Beltane fires snuffed by everyday rain,
the Maypole still wet.

We invited flesh and spirit to have their way with us.

“This only comes once a year,” I said to me then.
But that me (all covered in mud for May Day,
eyes closed and opened wants) she forgot,
she forgot everything that didn’t come
with him in it.

Thoughts of him are all over me now, always…
his words on my hips, always, always
him…

in the evening, on the dining-room table… him.

When reason is smashed to pieces
and lust is
neurosis dominated by love… him,
that is all I see—

his mind…
in
me.

This year, if rain won’t caress my Beltane fires, I will
spill wine in the dirt to make a bed of mud. To have him
all over me (eyes open and wants exposed), that is all
I want to see—

in the evening, on the dining-room table… him,
always him, neurosis dominated by love… him,

his words…
his mind…
in me.

 

borrowed from Trancetral

 

expanded from this slighted mad-looking acrostic blackout poem
(you can read a bit more about the blackout itself here).

 

– linked to the Imaginary Garden with Real Toads.